... that I still have people to help and support me through my tough times.

Huangcheng was amazing :) Perhaps not as good as last year, but it was full of wonderful surprises anyway. Had the chance to laugh and be with my friends, people whom I have been neglecting (mentally) in some way of another. They're wonderful people, I just wish we were more fated to spend more time together.

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Really never expected to see my church lifegroup at Huangcheng, it was a big plus. I haven't seen them in so long (haven't been going to church either)

I admit that although I give excuses to not go church, I really wish I had the time and motivation to do so. I always felt better after service, and it was one of the things that kept me going all through the second half of last year. I would go back; but my excuses are gradually becoming true.

In terms of my religious mentality right now, I'm still committing on my own terms. I won't say I am a spiritually committed Christian, but I really respect the cause, and I hope that one day I will really be able to place my faith entirely into God.

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Other than Huangcheng, the stormy week ended off on an interesting note. I won't go as far as to say that I overthink(ed) because I believe the reality of excuses and lies. Even my own facade is partially real because of my non-aggression with people I value. I really hope that you'll be fine with me soon though, I don't like this compromised silence at all. It pains me and I'm not sure if you can see that.

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And so sorry bro, for missing you out here and there. Hope you aren't thinking what I think you are thinking because I really didn't mean it. You've been a great and wonderful friend, and I hope that you won't doubt that for a moment :)